Disclaimer: This blog contains side thoughts to my thoughts. I actually think this way and drive people crazy, so be forewarned. Okay, so i couldn't tell you why ('cause I don't know), but I've always dated guys that are academically beneath me. (haha i sound like a stuck up bitch hahaha) I mean, I pretty much dated those guys that "just get by" in school and rarely have anything intelligent to say that isn't about their hobby or random interest. (not that I want to hear anymore about another guy's fucking car. gosh Dx).
I mean, I'm pretty high up there on the GPA scale. So, I gave up on trying to date the smartest guys (cause let's face it, they
usually aren't the most fun or the lookers from the bunch.).
As a result, here are the things I've
gotten used to
- "hey what are you doing?" "....talking to you." "really? cause i'm talking to YOU right now!" "...I never would have guessed. nope, never."
- "I'm failing math right now, I have a B in Art :D" (you must be so proud)
- "Baby, I love you so much." "oh yea? why?" "uhh i don't know. I just love you"
- "I'm playing video games right now, but sure sure we can talk =]" (guys, epic fail right here)
- "I dunno"............ "I dunno" ..........."I dunno" (well what the fuck DO you know then?)
- "are you going to the party?" "are you gonna get high at the party?" "yea.." "then I'd rather not go" "okay. i'll go and call you after." "While you're high?" *cricket cricket*
- "Jen just told me she liked me. I don't know what I'm gonna do." "umm are we even together right now?!"
- " I really want to go to college." "Really?! Okay! I'll help you study =]" (no action to back up his words)
alright, we get the picture....maybe.
POINT IS: I date guys who are going nowhere in life and pretty much can't keep up with me. I just got used to it (bad job on my part)
BUT (dun dun duuuun) Then, a while back, I started dating this college kid....soon to be a college graduate (i'm so proud T____T) So, when you date someone 4.5years your senior with a degree, you would think he'd be smarter then you, right?
Weeelllllllll, it never even crossed my mind! I was shocked when our phone conversations consisted of conversations about art, foreign language, travel, aspirations, what a usual day consists of (not just "what are you doing?"), sex, past relationships and just a million different things that i have NEVER talked about with a guy before...not a guy I'm dating anyway......actually not even with guys I'm not dating. I remember after our first phone call, I was practically in love.
Needless to say, I'm always in awe of him. Every time i talk to him or even just read one of his essays or whatever I'm just like "he's so smart!" and of course, with me being so shallow, he's good looking. Can we say "perfect package" ?
I feel like i've hit the jackpot, but at the same time, I'm not used to this.
Unlike the guys before him, he has a life and takes school seriously. So, occasionally I'm on the back burner. Sometimes, I have to come second to his school work. He's not always in the mood to say those cute, flirty things and can be very practical. But, other times he's totally opposite haha. It's like I don't know how to handle it. I've been learning how to find my own things to do when he's busy (which is good) and I've been trying not be immature (not that he ever said I was. I just feel like he deserves someone he doesn't have to take care of. I'm not into the whole a girl should be weak so the man can protect her). It's not that I feel unnecessary to him, I just keep thinking to myself that he is smart enough to know that he can find someone else and doesn't need to waste time on me. I guess this all goes back to how I'm leaving the country and can't find the right way to ask him to stay with me -____-
What I love about him is also my greatest rival. His brain!
...or maybe it's just me. o_____o
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